Why do I do it?

To Facebook or not to Facebook, that is the question.  Well it is at least one of the questions.  A couple other questions for me are “should I go exercise or finish this bag of Fritos”….. “should I go jump in the tub & read a trashy novel or should I study for the practicum I have tomorrow night”…….”should I go watch soap operas or balance my check book”.  Yes, these are the big decisions I’m struggling with at the moment.  I guess I know the answers to most of these questions.  I should put down the Fritos & exercise after I do some studying.  I shouldn’t even turn the tv on and should shut the computer of immediately.  Though the reality of the situation is that I already finished the bag of Fritos while I typed this and I’m probably going to go run the tub in a second and crack open a new smut novel.  Why is it that I know what I SHOULD be doing but somehow manage to convince myself that what I FEEL like doing makes more sense at the moment?  My whole Facebook thought only comes from another project I could start that would be more fun than studying.  I keep getting those emails “check out my Facebook” and while there is something about those kinds of sites that turns me off, I’m inclined to start one just so I don’t have to do something else that is higher on my to-do list.  Suddenly I feel like creating a Facebook and can come up with 100 different reasons why it would be a great idea to get it done right NOW.  I’m putting aside all the other reasons why I haven’t felt the need to do one, in an effort to cover up the things I should be doing.  I don’t think I’m going to fail my practicum tomorrow night but I have this streak of perfectionist in me that makes me feel the need to study my brains out.  My brains know that isn’t as much fun as soaking in the tub and I start to justify the reasons to put studying off.  In the end I will be in a mad dash of a scramble & will be kicking myself for not buckling down earlier & getting it done.  (However, my skin will be nice & soft from my long soak in the tub.)   Even after typing this & really thinking about how much I hate the final scramble, I’m kinda cold right now & still think a nice warm bath would make me feel better.  Even after putting this on paper I know I am going to do the exact opposite of what I should do.  In an effort to make myself feel better about this I will bring in some study cards but I know that 9 tenths of my time in the tub will be spent finding out about some mystery man who will fall haplessly in love with a needy young woman & their tawdry love affair ending in a happily ever after.  I guess admitting I have a problem is the first step right?

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